The Life I Wanted It To Be

Take a look at this. Super funny translation! Hahaha

The time now is 5.45am and I am still not sleeping yet.  Progress of my online lectures have been slow. Slow like hell. I can’t keep still and watch a full lecture for 50 minutes. |||

Should I sleep now? Or wait till 7am and go to coffeeshop and buy breakfast to eat?

I don’t have the motivation to excel in my studies now. I can’t be bothered to put in my best in my studies. I am just tired. I don’t know why.

I just want to get that fucking cert. That’s all. What happened if I get a 3rd class honors at the end? Will I feel disappointed? I don’t know. Maybe yes, because my friends around me are getting a better cert than me? Maybe no, because I know the cert is “just a piece of paper”

Well, I have the desire to start my business. And I am doing it right now. The problem is I don’t have much results to show. I made some money, but this puny sum is so much lesser than the “investment” I put in, trying to learn how to do the business.

I am stressed. Not because why I can’t get As in my exams. I am stressed because I am wondering why is it so hard for my online business to take off. Am I doing the right stuffs and heading the right directions? I have all the theoretical knowledge in internet marketing. But putting it into action and achieve results is kind of difficult right now.

Am I not cut for business? I don’t know. But I won’t give up. Cos’ I know being employee is not the best choice either. I can foresee in one or two years, all my University pals will be complaining how stressed or how boring or how sian will their jobs be.

A normal young adult right now in university are enjoying life. But why I am the opposite? Why should I try so hard to get a break through in my business? Maybe I shall just fuck it and let it go??? As I mentioned earlier, I won’t give up YET.

Arrrrgh! I can’t stand an exam or quiz that is mostly memory intensive.

I came across this somewhere:

Some journalists asked Albert Einstein what is the speed of sound. He soundly said he don’t know the answer. The journalists were stunned! Albert was supposed to be the smartest scientist in the world. How can he not know such a simple answer? Albert coolly said, “I don’t memorize stuffs that can be found in the textbook.”

The story that I phrase above is not exactly the same that I read before, but somewhere along the line. You get what I mean?

Exactly! Why must we memorize stuffs that can be found ALL in the notes or textbook. I think it’s a total waste of time. Although I complain about it, I don’t have a solution for it. I bet all those ministers also can’t come out with a good solution. The education system has been the same after so many years.

Yeah, maybe injected some “creative” modules in some of the classes in primary, secondary or JC, but overall is still much the same.

Well, this blog is meant to be a really personal blog. In fact, I had a blog in Blogger but I don’t to use that blog anymore. Blogger just sucks.

For the past 1 year, so many things had happened. I can’t say it all in just one entry. Maybe I shall do that post by post. See how it goes.

Well, as you can see here, this blog’s layout is the utmost bare minimum. No fancy themes or widgets. Yeah, and of the stuffs during the past one year is that I know how to create my own websites and own-hosted WP blog.  I even have my own domain names but I am not going to list down here. After all, I have said that it will be a PERSONAL blog and nothing else.

I can’t be bothered to do fancy stuffs in this blog…just some of my inner thoughts. This blog is created just after my websites are hacked by some Turkish hackers. Yes, damned the hackers.