The Life I Wanted It To Be

Convocation has ended and my University life also has officially come to an end. Sometimes, I really miss school. When I got back home from work, my mind starts wandering and I would thought of my school life back then. Skipped those lectures, having projects, eating at the ever crowded canteen with my buddies etc. Life was all about “freedom” back then.

Well, I can’t say I dislike my job right now. It’s what I want to do for a job. However, I can’t say I am passionate about my job either. When Sunday night arrived, my mind will go: “Sian, have to go work tomorrow.” If that happens, then one is not passionate about the job. Haha.

It’s just like a nanny taking care of a baby. You like babies and it’s your job. However, it’s NOT your own baby. So, the feeling of taking care of other babies and your OWN baby is different, even though you may like your job as a nanny.

Now I am really into the rat race. My desire to break free from it is growing stronger after experiencing first-hand. I MUST make my online business grows. I want to be free again. Yes, having one’s own business may have problems and headaches too. But at least it’s my own “Baby”.

Sometimes, I really feel shagged out after work. Totally just wanna slack and do nothing. But from now on, I will force myself to work more on my online biz after work. It will be rewarding. It will be…

No matter how tired I am, I MUST work towards it. I MUST.

Well, I was supposed to be sleeping at this hour. But somehow I can’t get to sleep.

Hmmm….tomorrow is Polymer Physics paper, but I am still not fully prepared. Will see how it goes when I start to revise again in the evening. Left 2 papers and one final presentation. Will gonna make it.

While I was tossing in bed just now, I have some thoughts about my personal goals in life. My mind went wild and I was thinking about achieving my goals and how I could make it happen. In fact, I have many goals in life. But somehow, if I can achieve this particular goal, I guess I would have achieved many of my other goals too. lol.

The goal is: My future wife do not ever need to work for the rest of her life if she don’t wish to.

Sounds corny… but I would like that to happen. lol.

Shall stop here. I am not a “blog” person. Haha.

Was randomly surfing the net when I read this. It’s so true.

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Bill Gates recently gave a speech at a High School about eleven things they did not and will not learn in school. He talks about how feel-good, politically correct teachings created a generation of kids with no concept of reality and how this concept set them up for failure in the real world.

Rule 1: Life is not fair – get used to it!

Rule 2 : The world won’t care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3 : You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won’t be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

Rule 4 : If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5 : Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

Rule 6: If you mess up, it’s not your parent’s fault, so don’t whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7: Before you were born, your parents weren’t as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent’s generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

Rule 8: Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they’ll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn’t bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9: Life is not divided into semesters. You don’t get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time.

Rule 10: Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you’ll end up working for one.

Loved that last, coming from Bill Gates especially!  Cool was king when I was a kid and it took me till I was 38 to get over that!

Hope you enjoyed as much as I did

Life has been pretty smooth for me in 2007.

But recently God decided to take notice of me again and giving me all kind of difficulties once more like he did previously.

Haha. Time to fight back and take up his challenge.

As always, I will survived.

I don’t have the motivation to excel in my studies now. I can’t be bothered to put in my best in my studies. I am just tired. I don’t know why.

I just want to get that fucking cert. That’s all. What happened if I get a 3rd class honors at the end? Will I feel disappointed? I don’t know. Maybe yes, because my friends around me are getting a better cert than me? Maybe no, because I know the cert is “just a piece of paper”

Well, I have the desire to start my business. And I am doing it right now. The problem is I don’t have much results to show. I made some money, but this puny sum is so much lesser than the “investment” I put in, trying to learn how to do the business.

I am stressed. Not because why I can’t get As in my exams. I am stressed because I am wondering why is it so hard for my online business to take off. Am I doing the right stuffs and heading the right directions? I have all the theoretical knowledge in internet marketing. But putting it into action and achieve results is kind of difficult right now.

Am I not cut for business? I don’t know. But I won’t give up. Cos’ I know being employee is not the best choice either. I can foresee in one or two years, all my University pals will be complaining how stressed or how boring or how sian will their jobs be.

A normal young adult right now in university are enjoying life. But why I am the opposite? Why should I try so hard to get a break through in my business? Maybe I shall just fuck it and let it go??? As I mentioned earlier, I won’t give up YET.